Tired, Worn Out & Over It –
Ignoring the Echoes and Listening to God’s Voice
Have you ever felt broken? Completely broken? I felt as if I was shattered into a million pieces and nothing in this world could put me back together again. My entire world was broken and in great need of repair. But I didn’t know where to start. I didn’t know how. I didn’t even know if I wanted to…
As a young lady, I was molested by a friend of the family. In high school, I watched a friend get murdered. I was married by 19 and gave birth to two beautiful little girls. After 9 years of marriage, we separated and I was a victim of acquaintance rape. I began to use cocaine to numb the emotions I felt. It was overwhelming and tiresome just being me. My situations and the words people used to describe me would echo in my mind. They would get louder and seem more relevant each time I heard them. I wanted to die on many occasions. I thank God. One day, I grabbed the Bible and began to pray that God show me if there was anything to it. That was the day I believe God began speaking to me. I listened. He granted me grace at a time when I needed it most. He saw the best in me. The more I listened to him, the more I believed him.
“Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:8-10